http://irc.lv/blogs?lang=&nick=Neophyte IRC.LV - (Neophyte) http://irc.lv/images/irc-logo-2.gif http://irc.lv/blogs?lang=&nick=Neophyte Tue, 24 Feb 2009 17:00:51 +0200 http://irc.lv/blogs?id=39456 http://irc.lv/blogs?id=39456 irc@irc.lv (Neophyte)
I admit life has been cruel to me,
All what I have been thought stays with me.
But with time I let it all out,
Just stay calm before I shout.

I try to make it better to the people that here with me,
No matter what would happen to me.
I always try to help but they still keep rejecting it,
Like there was something I did wrong that didn’t fit.

With time I try to get it over and it helps,
At least it doesn’t hold me down like the kelps.
I begin a new day with a new prelude,
With something new that will change my mood.

I don’t look back to see what happened back there.
So that the people wouldn’t stare.
At the person which I was before,
At the one who has experienced the gore.

Since I realized what was wrong
I grew bigger and strong
And with all my power that I have,
I will create a cure, I will create a salve.

For the ones who feel that their lives aren’t good enough,
For the ones who think that it’s pretty rough,
To survive ]]> Tue, 24 Feb 2009 17:00:51 +0200 http://irc.lv/blogs?id=39442 http://irc.lv/blogs?id=39442 irc@irc.lv (Neophyte)
Since when your life started to pinch on you?
What does it make so difficult to you
Just to open your heart and let it all out?
You can just scream or shout.

But that’s not the important thing,
What stops you from making the important fling?
Of telling what’s your problem or what is wrong?
Does it really matter to yourself that strong?

Could you please tell it once what is suffocating you…
I don’t care are those lies or it’s totally true,
The important thing is that you tell it to someone who cares,
And maybe that someone will understand your despairs.

But you still keep it to yourself, like a greedy bitch.
Not even trying to let it out, just giving it a pitch.
I know if could just tell it to me,
It would all might become much more clearly.

But No! You start to argue with me,
And this is what throws me in to fury.
It really pisses me off, I hate it a lot,
At that moment I would give anything for the shot.

At the end we go each our separate w]]> Tue, 24 Feb 2009 15:24:11 +0200 http://irc.lv/blogs?id=38997 http://irc.lv/blogs?id=38997 irc@irc.lv (Neophyte) Я чувствую себя как бесконечный ноль.
Там где Я небыл никогда,
Пойду вздремну на веки, на всегда...

Кто же дал нам эту бессмысленную роль
Которую мы сами не можем взять под контроль.
Мы ведь сами должны ей руководить,
А не учиться от неё как нам жить.

Она как ястреб в небесах
Распределяет нашу жизнь на весах.
Ну когда же мы вступим в бой?
С выстрелами и криками мы слышим адский вой.

Победа не на нашей стороне
Хотя мы с ней на равне.
Но когда-то наступит этот день,
Когда мы скинем её в бездну, где её накроет тень.

Только Я буду наслаждаться так сладко
Когда ей будет больно и не так гладко.
Где её будут  растерзать на тысячу частей.
Я буду только радоваться и кричать – “Убей её, Убей!”

Но со времeнем без неё меня затронет печаль,
Я буду грустить, волноваться, но держаться как сталь.
Время пройдёт и скоро Я забуду о ней,
Буду сидеть с друзьями говоря – “Ещё одну брат, ещё одну налей...”
]]> Wed, 18 Feb 2009 19:25:29 +0200 http://irc.lv/blogs?id=38773 http://irc.lv/blogs?id=38773 irc@irc.lv (Neophyte)
I don’t understand what is going on,
All what I know is that something is wrong.
Every day gets more boring than the previous one,
How I wish this feeling soon would be gone…

I come back home and what do I do?
Nothing. That’s right I do nothing.
For the past few weeks it has been
Like the usual every day routine.

Nothing seems to amuse me so far,
Now it looks like a brand new scar.
That will stay there forever and hurt,
At least maybe until I hit the dirt.

Got to do something about it…
It starts to scare me a lot,
That soon I will go crazy or lose my mind,
There has to be something I can find!!!

But all what I do is think how boring it would be,
That if I find it and it won’t amuse me.
Then it would start all over again.
Praise the God and say amen…

It has gone so far that now I don’t give a shit…
I think there was someone who let the fire lit,
But time goes on and the world is moving,
And am standing blind and somethin]]> Sun, 15 Feb 2009 15:08:35 +0200 http://irc.lv/blogs?id=37812 http://irc.lv/blogs?id=37812 irc@irc.lv (Neophyte)
I woke up and then came this day
When all of my feeling flew away,
Without them I could clearly see,
That there’s no religion for me.

Tell me where is your god?
Don’t you think that this is odd?
Millions of people pray,
But do they know that their world will decay?

People don’t realize that there is no hope,
Their lives are like an incised rope.
Soon their world will snap,
And then they will have to fill that empty gap.

They will have to do on their own
Because without their god they are all alone.
Stop wasting your time
And start to climb.

There’s a long journey to be made
And don’t you dare to be afraid.
It won’t be an easy way,
For some things you will have to pay.



"Wandering Soul"

Maybe my body is dead,
But my soul has fled.
It will wander all around,
Until my death will be crowned.

I thought it was a tragic scene,
But it was just another routine.
Killing, slaughtering people all around,
It ]]> Tue, 03 Feb 2009 18:52:28 +0200 http://irc.lv/blogs?id=21965 http://irc.lv/blogs?id=21965 irc@irc.lv (Neophyte)
Searching for an answer I went into the past,
I felt how time was running so fast.
Going deeper in to my thoughts,
I heard the sound of the sea and yachts.

I opened my eyes and saw the sky,
Somewhere far away i heard a little girl's cry.
I rised up and shooked the sand from my jacket,
Then I noticed that there's a key in my pocket.

There was strong wind on the beach,
Going blind, looking for the abnormally speech.
I approached the little girl but on the sand were only dashes,
It seems that she scattered in to ashesh.

Once again with no one insight, I was left alone,
I looked in to the sky and saw a sign, so I sat on the stone.
I thought deeply what could that mean ?
Cou]]> Mon, 10 Mar 2008 23:42:19 +0200 http://irc.lv/blogs?id=21951 http://irc.lv/blogs?id=21951 irc@irc.lv (Neophyte)
There i was alone after the fight,
There was no light only blood insight.
I felt alone like there was no soul alive,
I was hopping that some one could survive.

I came back home, but the rooms were empty,
The window was opened, it felt so drafty.
I looked outside and saw that the city was dead,
Empty homes, abandoned houses, all burning brightly red.

Then i realized that i'm the only one left,
There was not even a sound, i felt like i'm deft.
And there i was sitting on the chair,
Thinking that it's all not fair.

Covered in darkness without any hope,
Then in front of me appeared a rope.
With all the loneliness inside,
I had only one thing on my mind.

I arose to the chair and put it on my neck,
Then i said "I'm all alone, what the heck".
I jumped off holding my last breath,
Awaiting the moment of my death.

Then i woke up in my r]]> Mon, 10 Mar 2008 20:59:28 +0200