i so regret i never said i miss you. life is good ye. ball is moving.
i hate london, so much. there is no life, no air. people with the wild eyes and thought that are even worse. i was not shooting there, at all. never unpacked my camera. i regret now for loosing you, as you were sincere i think. i do not need to be with you to feel complete you know, i feel love blossoming inside. talking to me in the nights and during the days, when i drink the water and smoke my cigarettes, before to fall asleep and straight after being awake. i am sleeping a lot now, only when i'm sleeping i do not think of you. i'm trying to put myself together, to keep on living. suddenly i have remembered all my goals and dreams. i have started to shoot again. i see myself differently now, like from the different angle. memories and all these things, i'm completely not going to get rid of them. i have left a little huge space in me, it's full of you. sometimes i think it's empty. i'm empty. but what i really wish is that one, new one to embrace the life in your mouth. the last time i saw you, you were lost. i am inlove with you, please find  your way, love hard, even harder. make some kids, build a house, marry her



omg hahah ))) monika honey, i can do the shoots for these girls but the thing is that i'm quite limited to create a different idea for the shoot for the each girl. and what i need is my portfolio to show me being able to shoot differently.
i'm sorry, don't think that i'm a bitch is just that i want to widen my portfolio too and do something different. for you i will do the shoot as i promised don't worry <3